You wake up everyday at 5 or let’s say 6am. After a night of tossing and turning, kama sio mbu ni joto.Before you leave bed you check your phone to see whether the last message you sent before you blacked out was responded to. If there is a response you will text back ,if there is none, you proceed to WhatsApp stories to laugh at the never ending memes. You send a text to the person who posted it asking them to forward it to you, you also want to make your people laugh.
Once you are done with the whatsapp stories you proceed to Facebook. You scroll through, reading people’s updates ukitafuta udaku ama a trending topic. You can’t be left behind, you need to changia to a conversation somewhere. Before you know it you have spent close to an hour doing nothing sensible on your phone yet you need to be going to the office.
The one place you spend your whole day under a frustrating environment. You have those annoying bosses who will want to run your life as if they own you, or those colleagues who are every ready to throw you under the bus to save their asses. You are constantly stressed about your work, if not work then finances,if not finances you are dating or are married to someone who is not giving your peace. This is your life, day in day out, nothing changes.
This will be the routine until you reach your retirement age then it hits you you never lived your life. Someone used your talents and time to better themselves and you never even realized this. They made your life hell but since you needed them more to survive you had to dance to their tune.
Then one day you start asking yourself questions. Questions which you would have rather asked yourself when you were still younger and had more choices to work with. Who am I ? Why am i on this world to start with ? For what reason did God create me if He exists? Yani I went through the 8-4-4 system to end up as an average citizen bila mbele wala nyuma? Is it God who appoints Kenyan leaders with all the looting and thieving they do ? What are my talents, what is that one thing I can do so well and get fulfillment even when I dont have the strength to? What is my purpose on this planet, because without a purpose, you will always feel as if your life is in constant motion without progress.
Funny enough money doesn’t give you purpose. You will get a mjengo guy who is way happier in this life because he found his purpose compared to a CEO somewhere who has it all but is living an empty life. We have been told this is the saddest generation living behind memes to live through the day. Sounds like a false statement but have you ever asked yourself how many hours you spend a day in social media? Now, what if you channeled that energy into discovering who you really are and what your calling is?
At some point we have all had these kinds of thoughts. And they will affect your moods big time anytime they come. My question is, how do you tell what your purpose is? How do you get to a point of saying, life is fair, I’m getting all I bargained for and I’m content. That if you died today you would have lived life and left a legacy. You could be having as many children as Akuku danger and still be empty, you could be a mother to very beautiful children with the best partner but still feel empty, you could be the perfect human according to human standards but still be lost, your purpose is yours… You don’t find it, you will never be at peace really.
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